Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Hello There

Hello readers (if you are still out there). How long has it been since I have written? A month? Probably more than that. What have I been doing these days? I wish I knew. I can't really say work has been keeping me away. Yes, I have been working, but it is not as hectic as it used to be. My new job profile is wonderful, it lets me actually live a life. Moreover, writing to me is life itself, there is no explanation as to why I have kept away for so long.

I could not call it a writer's block. If I could afford to have one of those, I couldn't have been working as a journalist. All these days, for some scary reason, the things I saw, the places I went to, my life I led inside my head and through words spoken to people, not through words written for posterity. It is scary because I am not a good speaker at all, I prefer to take refuge in words and let people know me through those. But then, change, the one element we are all scared of, yet unconsciously anticipate, was inevitable.

A few months ago, I went out, on a normal day at work, nothing unusual, except perhaps the nature of that day's assignment, announcement of the financial results of a major IT company. I went out, finished the assignment and also got myself a social life.

The last few months have been wonderful. I found myself a beyond-description kind of friend, a dear dear soul, the strongest base of my support system. I have begun to look outside the realm of work a bit, been going out shopping, socialising, having great fun. All the while, I no longer felt the urge to write, to just let out my thoughts into the world, if only to be free from their constraints. I could write a "Dear Diary" in spoken words, say anything I would normally want to write in this blog, describe my day, voice my dreams and fears, laugh it all off and live a life. Words began to seem irrelevant, they still do. But after well over a month of not writing, I realise that writing is its own release in itself. I can and will continue to talk on for hours but writing is in my blood, I cannot for long go against my nature.

So I shall be back often, I shall write again, living my life, a one that is just oh-so-beautiful. :-)


VENU VINOD said...

yes, you should not go away from writing, where you stand strong. hope to read more

ಅನಿಕೇತನ said...

I kept returning to see only the old posts. Now you have decided not to stay away from writing ..Keep writing ... it's a wonderful gift.

Ashley said...

I'll always check back to see what you are up to, Deepa.

Take care,

A.K.Purandare said...

Yes i do trust its your life and you are planning to frame rules for your self.No doubt you write so beautifully.i was also trying to enter in the world of blog,but no comments.You are lucky you are getting comments.How did you started receiving comments?What do you feel about the comments you receive.I felt that a technique should be evolved to get sufficient no of feed back comments.Can you suggest how?Good luck.Keep writing and yes almost daily.